I think true (requited) love is a rare gift from fate. A miracle even.
Waiting for it happen, trying to make it happen, is pretty much like standing there waiting to win the lottery.
If she can’t see you that way from the beginning, she most likely never will. At best she’ll settle for you for the moment, but when that handsome, more interesting dude comes over you’re done for. She’ll be sweeped off her feet instantly and there you go. It doesn’t matter if you have been her favorite person for 7, 10 or 30 years.
It looks like such a difficult thing to achieve that it’s sad. I’m pretty sure most people live through their lives without even knowing what true love means. Yet they have had girlfriends, or they are even married. That probably comes with being outgoing, but that’s besides the point.
Sometimes I wonder why I have to be so obsessed with love… why I lack a girl’s affection so much. It’s definitely counter-productive. Why do I have to be so romantic… it’s quite embarassing. I always tend to hide this side of mine irl.
It’s not like I’m a total loser either… let’s say I’m a recovering shy person… I’m friendlier and smilier (xd funny word) than ever… and this girl I know irl seems to also be kinda obsessed with me. But I can’t bring myself to feel the same for her… love is a very cruel thing.
I also need to change this background… a girl I loved a lot made it for me… but suddenly it feels kind of….gay.